lesson learned .

today ... I heard a news about my ex and his new girlfriend . well, wait guys, it's not I still remember him or what , not at all, read my lips, NOT AT ALL , but today I shared a lot with my sista and I told her about the kind of our relationship we ever had .. and she said that I should've realized how lucky I was for being dumped .

and I think about it over and over again .. and then I agree with her . I AM LUCKY .

trus .. nggak tau kenapa aku tiba-tiba sadar . kalau selama ini Tuhan udah negur aku dengan sangat lembut supaya aku nggak nerusin relationship aku ama dia . mulai dari peringatan kakak-kakak yang ngasih tahu aku karakternya dia gimana , trus hubunganku ama dia yang nggak seindah pasangan lain , trus kecuekannya dia yang harusnya jadi sign kalau dia nggak butuh itu semua .. dan aku ignored semua sign-sign itu . 

Tuhan  nggak tega aku kayak gini terus , yang udah bikin komitmen konyol "I will never let go of your hands until you let go of mine" , akhirnya ngasih aku teguran yang cukup keras : He let me being dumped .

aku nggak bohong , aku sempat mengalami saat-saat kehancuran dimana aku ngerasa Tuhan itu nggak adil , when I finally had someone , he had to be somebody that hurt me a lot . well , aku akhirnya menyerah dengan keadaan yang memang nggak bisa lagi diubah dan harus menenggak kenyataan lumayan pahit dimana dia ngedapetin penggantiku dalam waktu satu bulan aja . hebat yah dia ? tepuk tangan ... LMFAO xP

but , again , I'm so grateful now . no feeling dumped is left , I'm soo damn fine right now , I don't even care if he gets married now , all that I care about is how grateful I am because I couldn't do nothing when he dumped me all of sudden .

THAT WAS THE BEST BIRTHDAY GIFT EVER , GOD . thank YOU for saving me !

and geez , stop talking about that fuckin' jerk ..

I got a life which is so damn fun to live !