it's been a while since my last post , hmm I'm not in the mood to write anything :) just wanna post my tumblr account , anyone please follow me if you don't mind ;)

minkyuismine.tumblr.com

that's all ..

nighty night ♥

it's all because Kyu - Love again :D

nggak tahu kenapa hari ini rasanya ada yang beda dari hari-hari yang lain . padahal harusnya aku seneng , karena hari ini aku bisa sms-an dengan cowok yang aku suka . harusnya aku seneng , karena aku bisa ngumpul ama temen-temenku . harusnya seneng , karena bisa jalan ama sahabatku . dan harusnya masih seneng , karena aku tahu Kyuhyun ada di suatu tempat di belahan bumi sana :)

tapii .. ternyata keadaan berbeda . aku justru galau seharian ini . entah kenapa tiba-tiba aku ngerasa capek; lelah; wes pokoknya campur aduk .. bahkan sempet ada rasa nyerii yang dulu pernah aku rasain , padahal aku juga nggak ada apa-apa . aku lagi suka ama orang , tapi sebatas suka aja , no deep feeling involves .. aku juga nggak lagi sayang/cinta mati ama seseorang , bahkan rasanya aku senseless sekarang .. udah mati rasa . bagi aku , di dunia ini udah nggak ada lagi cowok yang biasanya dipanggil Mr. Right . entahlah .. tiba-tiba aja rasa sakit itu muncul lagi .

apalagi setiap kali aku denger lagunya orang ini ----> CHO KYUHYUN - LOVE AGAIN ♥

pasti deeh .. langsung mellow+galau gajelas , tanpa sebab -____-

but honestly .. this is a damn good song , so here's the video and the lyrics . and I'm pretty sure you'll love it :)

Romanization

yogikkajiin got gatasso naye giogi
dasin mot bol olguldeulman seuchoga
amugotdo hal su opsotdon kkeute soso
du son moa gidoman hesso

ajik motdahan nae maeumeul jonhal su itge

dasi irona nal gidaryeo jun geudael bogosipo
dasi doraga hagosipeunmal saranghamnida

momcyoborin gotman gatasso sesangi da
hengbokhetdon sigandeulman seuchyoga
naegen opseul gotman gatatdon kkeute soso
geurohge nan gidoman hesso

jinachyo watdon sarangdeureul neukkil su itge

dasi irona nal gidaryeo jun geudael bogosipo
dasi doraga hagosipeunmal saranghamnida

moreun chae sarawasso olmana sojunghessotneunji

dasi irona nal gidaryeo jun geudael bogosipo
dasi doraga hagosipeunmal saranghamnida

Hangul

여기까지인 것 같았어 나의 기억이
다신 못 볼 얼굴들만 스쳐가
아무것도 할 수 없었던 끝에 서서
두 손 모아 기도만 했어

아직 못다한 내 마음을 전할 수 있게

다시 일어나 날 기다려준 그댈 보고싶어
다시 돌아가 하고싶은 말 사랑합니다

멈춰버린 것만 같았어 세상이 다
행복했던 시간들만 스쳐가
내겐 없을 것만 같았던 끝에 서서
그렇게 난 기도만 했어

지나쳐 왔던 사랑들을 느낄 수 있게

다시 일어나 날 기다려준 그댈 보고싶어
다시 돌아가 하고싶은 말 사랑합니다

모른 채 살아왔어 얼마나 소중했었는지

다시 일어나 날 기다려준 그댈 보고싶어
다시 돌아가 하고싶은 말 사랑합니다

English Lyric

I thought this was the end of my memory
The faces I’ll never see again pass me by
I stood at the end where I couldn’t do anything
I put my hands together and just prayed

So I could show you my heart

That still hasn’t done everything

Get up again
I want to see you who has waited for me
Go back again
I want to say “I love you”

I thought the entire world stopped
Only the happy times pass me by

I stood at the end I thought I wouldn’t have
I just prayed like that
So I can feel the love
That I’ve passed by

Get up again
I want to see you who has waited for me
Go back again
I want to say “I love you”
I’ve lived without knowing
How precious you are

Get up again
I want to see you who has waited for me
Go back again
I want to say “I love you”

Kyuhyun ♥

insanely in love with my Prince Kyu ♥

I just love him , he is soo awesome !!! he's adorable , his voice's such a lullaby for me , I LOVE THIS GUY SO MUCH !! I ♥ CHO KYUHYUN 

my super mom

I think a lot about my mother lately .

she's 46 years old . she's beautiful , she's patient , she's tough . she's the toughest woman I've ever met . my family had such a up and down times , of course , and I just can't imagine if I were her . I wouldn't be that strong enough to take those painful times : betrayed , lied , abandoned , broken-hearted .. I just can't take it ...

But my mom could . she was my only power , my only strength , for I wasn't close enough with God , I was 13 . and she kept standing still when I thought she already fell down . I really adore her , soooo much . she's my role model , she's PERFECT .

she's a lovely and loyal wife . a hard-worker . a patient and a loving mom . I love her so much :')

she's my everything . my breathe , my strength , my power , my gravity . she's my hero .

I love you , Mom :)

I can't get love outta my mind ♥

I don't know why ... I think about love a lot . I just can't imagine what world would be without love , nor what would my life be if I had no love ...

I got a lot to do , and I had such a tight schedule on my daily life . but still , I keep thinking about love . there was somebody that ever said to me , that I'm kind of person that cannot hate . I don't know why , but I guess I have to agree with her . and I'm grateful of that :)

But back then .. when I see what world thinks about love . if there's still a lot of love , there'd be no war . no crimes . no loner , and no discriminations .

come on , guys . spread the love , you won't regret it . the world'll gonna be more peaceful when love is in the air .. :)

everlasting love ♥

Indonesia berduka ditinggalkan salah satu generasi terbaiknya .. :'(

 

farewell , oom Adjie . semoga tenang di alam sana , dan semoga keluarga yang ditinggalkan diberi ketabahan .. :')

anyway .. I just found this quote on Angelina Sondakh's blog . and it's quite touching ... I can't imagine how she feels right now , when half of her heart's already gone and never come back ..

"Who brings me the “different” angles of how to see this life …. Who teaches me to be a “woman” that have the strength to “fight” for my future and who makes me believe that LOVE is UNIVERSAL.." [Angelina Sondakh to Adjie Massaid] 

your love is the only thing that remains ..

Make Love - Big Bang

I never knew I'd find a love so true
This one right here, is just for you

Remember that One day
I held your hands then I kissed your lips then I told you
Our love was meant to be and always will forever
Give me that happiness I get from you just being there

I always see you when I close my eyes, you're on my mind
So can't you see, I need you right here wit me, close by my side
This time for sure, Gonna let you know, My love is straight from the heart

Forever you're my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one I'll ever need, my life is you and me
Forever you're my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart "no", so baby don't let go

Even through the hard times
We made it through just fine
When it hurt we put in the work
To show that I'm yours
And that your mine
That's how we got this far
Let's never be apart
Girl, you're my queen
I'm here for you
'Cuz you're my everything

You always make me feel like everything's gonna be alright
Wit the things you do, becuz it's you the real true love of my life
This time fo sho, Gonna let you know, My love is straight from the heart

Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one I'll ever need, my life is you & me
Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart "no", so baby don't let go

Uh... baby!
You know I'd walk them miles
Climb mountains switch up styles
All I wanna do, is be with you
Ain't no matter what, where and how
[Right here and now] we can both get down [straight work it out] yeah
Like that sound bump 'n grindin' perfect timin'
Let's dine and both be proud yeah yeah yeah

Gonna take you on a joyride today
Me and you stay true never hesitate
To make love — sho nuff
You're the only one I'm ever thinkin' of
Just to hold you baby I can hardly wait
As we go through the motions damn it's great
To make love — sho 'nuff
We're gonna take it to the end and that's what's up

You are the only one I want to spend my whole life with I know
Anywhere you are, that's where I will call home
So just take my hand and say that you will never let it go
Two hearts always beating as one forever more

Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one I'll ever need, my life is you & me
Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart "no", so baby don't let go

I'm nothing without you I'm nothing without you girl
I'm nothing without you I'm nothing without you girl
My love

thanks for someone who made me know this beautiful song :')

pictures of me

Misery Business - Paramore

I'm in the business of misery,
Let's take it from the top.
She's got a body like an hourglass, it's ticking like a clock.
It's a matter of time before we all run out,
When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth.

I waited eight long months,
She finally set him free.
I told him I couldn't lie he was the only one for me.
Two weeks and we caught on fire,
She's got it out for me,
But I wear the biggest smile.

Whoa, i never meant to brag.
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him now.
And if you could then you know you would.
'Cause God it just feels so...
It just feels so good.

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change.
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change.
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged.
I'm sorry honey, but I passed it up, now look this way.
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you.
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right.
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!

Whoa, i never meant brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
'Cause I got him where I want him right now.
And if you could then you know you would.
'Cause God it just feels so...
It just feels so good.

I watched his wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving...

Whoa, i never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.

Whoa, i never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
'Cause I got him where I want him now.
And if you could then you know you would.
'Cause God it just feels so...
It just feels so good.

 
this song is one of my favorites , and I'll love Paramore till death :)

look at me ! and you'll love what you'll look .

I'm falling in love with somebody else :)

mmm .. yeah , I've told you before that I've already been giving up with cloud's case . well , he's too far away from where I stand . he doesn't belong to the world which I choose to live in . aku kemarin sempet punya kesempatan buat mengenal lingkungannya .. and I just don't fit in them . it's not where I belong , I guess .. he and I have different classes .

yesterday I was upset because he didn't reply my chat on Y!M , and then .. somebody came . he has the same name with me , just being distinguished by a letter . 'a' and 'o' , so I guess you know his name ;)

he's incredibly cute ! and even though we just have talked yesterday , it's like I was talking to an old friend . dia bahkan udah berani ngejailin aku , awww :3

and yeah , I guess I like him a lot . though he has a girlfriend now , I'll be waiting . and , yeah , I want to know him more , of course :)

happy ending ♥

I just watched boys before flowers , and now .. I got some thoughts on my mind .

 

Aku bukan mau ngebahas ceritanya atau apa sih , cuma aku tadi iseng-iseng aja liat (lagi) film ini and suddenly some thoughts came up on my mind hha ... And I just wanna share it to you :)

Film ini memang rasanya terlalu impossible banget hahaha . yaaa namanya juga film komersiil kan . tapi ceritanya sweet banget . dimana cintanya Jan Di ama Jun Pyo itu nggak pernah mulus dari awal , adaaaaaa aja hambatannya . dan yah meski kok kayaknya halangannya banyak banget , mulai dari perbedaan status sosial mereka , rebutan ama sahabat sendiri , dipisahin ama orang tua , trus dijodohin ama cewek lain , yang terakhir hilang ingatan .. well kesannya sih emang 'ruwet' banget ya hhe . tapi toh akhirnya mereka happy ending , mana si Jan Di dilamar Jun Pyo di tepi pantai pas sunset lagi , aw aw aw really wish I'd gonna have that kind of love story :3

  

ehm . yang mau aku bahas itu apa sih ? yang aku dapet disini ... the journey of their love itu loh yang bikin ngiri ! aku kadang , eh bukan kadang sih , sering malah berharap aku kayak remaja-remaja yang lain , yang suka ama seorang cowok , trus cowok itu juga suka ama dia , trus mereka jadian , awet-langgeng-adem-ayem dan akhirnya nikah .

and then ? happy ending ? mm .. iya nggak tahu sih hahaha . cuma kok setelah aku pikir-pikir love life yang kayak gitu nggak ada 'greget'nya .

sekarang aku justru mendambakan (ceileh) kisah cinta yang penuh perjuangan *brb muntah dulu* hehehehe . yah bukannya berjuang yang kayak apa sih , ya hambatannya jangan sesusah Jun Pyo ama Jan Di juga kalee , tapi at least ... aku dan pasanganku itu nantinya bakalan menghadapi banyak perjuangan sebelum kami bisa bersama #apasih ??? huahahah random banget deh . but it's true . ehm ... aku jadi bingung kan gimana ngomongnya .

naksir seseorang yang oh-so-unreachable . diejek banyak orang , "ga bakalan bisa kamu jadi ama dia..." , digosipin fans-fansnya that incredible guy , ditolak berkali-kali , dicuekin , nggak dilihat sama sekali , tapi endingnya saat udah mulai menyerah , dia mulai ngelihat dan akhirnya memperjuangkan aku. ooh so sweet . but why does it sooooo sound like ... cloud ?? hahaha :p

well , sekali lagi , love takes struggle . love needs to fight . love needs time . and love takes patience . and all , it'll be worth it in the end .

aku hanya ingin menikmati sensasi diperjuangkan oleh seseorang . yah sampai sekarang aku belum ngerasain itu sih , but come on , I'm still 17 years old (oh my God how young I am :3) and my journey's just began , I'm gonna have a long-long trip .. to gain my happy ending in the future :)

sebenernya inti dari kata-kataku yang nggak jelas diatas ... cinta yang butuh banyak perjuangan itu bakalan lebih kerasa gregetnya . bakalan tetep diinget sepanjang masa . and I want that kind of love story :)

so , how's urs ? :D

you and me , finally together ... now and forever .

my favorite

I can never resist them :9

a lonely loner .

 

feel so alone tonight .

#sigh ... 

when exactly he will look at me ? or he just would never do ..

I'm tired of wishing .. hoping .. waiting nor trying .

I'm even tired of falling in love ..

butterflies

 

I love butterfly . well , who doesn't ?

I love it coz it's beautiful and it's free . I love their insanely-beautiful wings , I love the way they fly , I just love them so much .

dan aku pikir .. kenapa kita nggak merefleksikan diri kita layaknya kupu-kupu ? semua pasti tahu kupu-kupu itu berasal dari ulat . dan aku SANGAT-AMAT-BENCI sekali dengan yang namanya ulat , apalagi ulat bulu , euuughh !! I'd better off die than feel them on my skin just once !! gaah ! ohkay , back to the topic . aku juga yakin banyak orang yang nggak suka ulat , secara mereka juga merugikan , bikin daun tanaman bolong-bolong dan bla bla bla ... but can't u see ? once they transform into a beautiful butterfly , people will forget the way they used to look like , and the beauty will remain . that's just the way how society works.

and ... being a butterfly is not as easy as it seems . it takes processes . mulai dari jadi kepompong dalam waktu lama , trus untuk keluar dr kepompong itupun butuh waktu yang lama dan butuh kekuatan juga ... and just like people say , what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger .

that's why I adore them so much ... coz they're the reflection of what I wish to be . beautiful and strong .. just like that :)

gettin' mad

dammit ! I'm gettin' mad with this college stuff ... I got to finish this , and pay that , and it's just gettin' sucker coz I got to pay for some donation ... aarghhh !! dammit !

makin materialistis aja nih kampus lama-lama .. -____-

Ten2five - Love is You

This is how I feel

Whenever I'm with you

Everything is all about you

Too good to be true

Somehow I just can't believe

You can lay your eyes on me

If this is a fairytale

I wish it will end happily ..

Even though we're apart

I can feel you here next to me

Here now and I will vow

Stay with me ...

Let me love you with all my heart

You are the one for me

You are the light of my sould

Let me hold you with my arms

I wanna feel love again

I wanna feel love again

I wanna feel love again

And I know love is you ..

new look :)

hahaha finally I got a new look for my blog .. I'm kinda bored with the old one , so I tried to arrange it once again .. and I love it . blue . and I still don't find any new title for my blog yet , and I love 'unfinished sky' anyway , so why bother ?

ahh .. talking about blue ..

I'm feeling blue right now .. it's not a sad feeling or what , but it's kinda .. calm ..

and I just can't get him out of my mind . he's always there ...

my shady cloud ..

don't stay too far away from me . I need you , I want you , please be mine ..

Sherina ~ Simfoni Hitam

malam sunyi kuimpikanmu , kulukiskan kita bersama

namun slalu aku bertanya , adakah aku di mimpimu ..

dihatiku terukir namamu, cinta rindu beradu satu

namun slalu aku , bertanya adakah aku di hatimu ..

 

tlah kunyanyikan alunan-alunan senduku ..

tlah kubisikkan cerita-cerita gelapku ..

tlah kuabaikan mimpi mimpi dan ambisiku ..

tapi mengapa ku takkan bisa

sentuh hatimu .. 

bila saja kau disisiku , kan kuberikan segalanya

namun tak henti aku bertanya , adakah aku di benakmu ..

 

tlah kunyanyikan alunan-alunan senduku ..

tlah kubisikkan cerita-cerita gelapku ..

tlah kuabaikan mimpi mimpi dan ambisiku ..

tapi mengapa ku takkan bisa

sentuh hatimu ..

tak bisakah kau sedikit saja dengar aku , dengar simfoniku , simfoni hanya untukmu .. 

tlah kunyanyikan alunan-alunan senduku ..

tlah kubisikkan cerita-cerita gelapku ..

tlah kuabaikan mimpi mimpi dan ambisiku ..

tapi mengapa ku takkan bisa

sentuh hatimu ..

my first dew

finally ... the very first tear ..
is falling .. just for you .

just let the haters do their jobdesc .

aku nggak ngerti kenapa harus ada orang yang segitu nggak sukanya sama orang lain sampai bikin gosip segala . oke , pastilah ada seseorang yang nggak aku sukai juga , tapi aku nggak sampai segitunya , yang bikin gosip , ngejauhin , atau ngejelekin orang lain . hahahaha . should I call those people , in this case , those GIRLS , pathetic ? yeah , I should . khe khe khe .

well ... aku sih nggak peduli ya mereka mau ngapain . mau ngegosipin kek , mau ngejauhin kek , atau mau neror atau nglabrak sekalipun .. I don't give a shit . I just do what I want to do and I don't give a damn about what people might say about me , apalagi klo masalah dari semua ini cuma karena suka ama cowok .

yaa . suka ama cowok yang punya terlalu banyak secret admirer .

yaah .. bodo amat lah . aku bakalan tetep suka ama dia meski banyak orang yang jadi nggak suka aku gara-gara itu hahah . kenapa sih , jealous much ? afraid if u'd get beaten , huh ? justru aku jadi tahu sih kalau aku rival yang cukup mengancam dan nggak bisa diremehkan , hahaha .

udah ah randomnya . let haters do their job description , and I love them . I love the fact that , they actually wish they were me . hahahaha :D

never.let.you.go.

This narrow path led me to the cross roads
I walked alone, feeling so lonely
I really hope there was someone to hold...

Then, I met you when I reached the cross roads
You looked into my eyes, and then you asked me to hold my hands
We walked together...
We shared joys and sorrows
We laughed, we cried,
And then I realized I've already lost my loneliness
I've already had someone standing by my side
We enjoyed our togetherness
The time was getting closer, but we ignored it...

Suddenly, it happened
I saw our road ended in an intersection
I hold your hands tighter than before
I asked you, "Should we end all of this?
I wanna feel this way forever. I don't wanna let you go..."

You smiled and wiped my tears
"We still have enough time. Let's carve another memories before that cross roads tell us apart..."

We walked slowly than before
But the time was never stop
Finally, we reached the end of our road
I hold you
I hold you tightly.

"Don't go!" I cried.
Our road ended and led us to the different paths
Our road was separated into two...

"But we have to continue our life..." You answered me.

"No... I don't want this to end..."

"This isn't an ending." you said, and you wiped my tears.
"Don't cry for me. your tears are too precious...
You have to trust me
Maybe this time, this cross roads can tear us apart
But our love will never going to end...
This time we have to be separated
But someday, you'll see,
Our roads will come together again
We will meet in another cross roads,
And it will be the last intersection.
You and I, we are meant to be together
We'll meet again someday, and we'll walk in the same road,
And that road will lead us to eternity..."

I smiled with tears hanging in the corner of my eyes...

"I wish you every happiness."

You let go my hands,
And I felt I lost my breathe away...

Now, we're walking in our own path
I laugh, I cry, I smile,
Without you by my side
Now, I start to run
'Coz I wanna reach the end of this road
'Coz I wanna reach the cross roads...
'Coz I know you're waiting in the end of my path.
I will see you there...
I will hold your hands like I used to do.
I won't be lonely anymore
I will get my happiness.

I know it,
I know.
You'll never get tired,
In waiting for me to come...

We will meet again
We will meet someday
The day will have arrived quickly,
And when it comes, I'll hold your hands tightly.
I will never let you go.

I will never
ever
let
you
go.

I love you...
Wait for me.

Wouldn't Change A Thing - Demi Lovato ft. Joe Jonas

It's like he doesn't hear a word I say

His mind is somewhere far away

And I don't know how to get there

It's like (she's way so serious)

all he wants is to chill out (She's always in a rush)

Makes me wanna pull all my hair out (and interrupting)

Like he doesn't even care (like he doesn't even care)

You, me, we're face to face

But we don't see eye to eye

Like fire and rain (like fire and rain)

You can drive me insane (you can drive me insane)

But I can't stay mad at you for anything

We're Venus and Mars (we're venus and mars)

We're like different stars (like different stars)

But you're the harmony to every song I sing

And I wouldn't change a thing ...

She's always trying to save the day
Just wanna let my music play
She's all or nothing
But my feelings never change

(Why, do you try to read my mind?) I try to read her mind
(It's not good to psychoanalyze) She tries to pick a fight
To get attention,
That's what all of my friends say

You, me, we're face to face

But we don't see eye to eye

 

Like fire and rain

You can drive me insane

But I can't stay mad at you for anything

We're Venus and Mars

We're like different stars

But you're the harmony to every song I sing

And I wouldn't change a thing ...

When I'm yes she's no,

When I hold on he just lets go ..

We're perfectly imperfect,

But I wouldn't change a thing , yeaah ...

Like fire and rain

You can drive me insane

But I can't stay mad at you for anything

We're Venus and Mars

We're like different stars

But you're the harmony to every song I sing

And I wouldn't change a thing ...

But I can't stay mad at you for anything
We're Venus and Mars
(We're Venus and Mars)
We're like different stars
(Like different stars)
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a
Wouldn't change a thing ...

I love this song till death , seriously :)